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Feel like a natural woman...

Well here I am, back at Xanga, after an extremely long amount of time. And for that, I apologize. After my most recent entry on here (the one before the song lyrics), I blogged on myspace for a while, http://www.myspace.com/starrfyre , then broke that off. I now have blogs on Wordpress, IJ, LJ, and blogspot. And this one.

I'm sorry I haven't been around....so didja miss me? lol.

I'm trying to make a comeback when it comes to blogging in general, so here goes...my life since December '06...

...has been extremely long. And busy! Short end of it is, I'm single now (after leaving a boyfriend who cheated on me in the 2 weeks I was miscarrying his child), and I'm not upset about that. Or not really. I've created 2 podcasts, "Squint Squad" (a Bones podcast) and "3 Chicks and a Mic" (a girl-oriented geekfest, lol!). Just started the second, so it's not on iTunes yet...but should be within the week.

I still work at the lawn care comp I started at 3 years ago. And I have a sometimes-job at Macys, where I go fulltime in Dec, when the other job lays me off for the month.

I've got my own office at work now! It's cool at the moment, because no one else is back here, so I can pretty much do what I want. No one to bug me, and it's blessedly quiet!

Speaking of, I should go on my lunch break, so....drop a comment, welcome me back! Let me know you missed me. Hoping to bring some of the same awesome types of posts I gave y'all in the back.

Currently Listening Riot! By Paramore For a Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic see related

We'll start again and just pretend that nothing ever happened

Loose Lips

by Kimya Dawson

From the "Juno" movie soundtrack

loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips
to san francisco, double dutch disco,
tech tv hottie, do it for scotty
do it for the living and do it for the dead
do it for the monsters under your bed
do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom
broken hearts hurt but they make us strong and

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be
how's it gonna be?
i'll drop kick russell stover, move into the starting over house
and know matt rouse and jest are watching me achieve my dreams

and we'll pray, all damn day, every day,
that all this shit our president has got us in will go away
while we strive to figure out a way we can survive
these trying times without losing our minds

so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend

shysters live from scheme to scheme and my 4th quarter pipe dreams
are seeming more and more worth fighting for
so i'll curate some situations, make my job a big vacation
and i'll say F*CK BUSH AND F*CK THIS WAR
my war paint is sharpie ink and i'll show you how much my shit stinks
and ask you what you think because your thoughts and words are powerful
they think we're disposable, well both my thumbs opposable
are spelled out on a double word and triple letter score

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be

You see all my light, and you love my dark..and you're still here...

At this time, I'm going to take  moment (or an entry) to thank all those subscribers I have who have stuck with me all these years, despite the occasional year-long lapse of no word from me. So thank you to the following:

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And she's lost like Alice, in a painted past, in a looking glass

I feel bad.

I was looking back at some of my old entries-from nearly 5 years ago now!-and I realized that I used to be in the habit of posting on a DAILY basis. I haven't done that in a really long time though. I'm not going to say I will now, because that means I wouldn't....so here's me trying to not post on a daily basis.

Anyway....I have this track record of always being hired for a job I interview for. Well it holds true. Today, I was hired by Macy's following an interview, following an app I filled out, all in the same day! So I am now a seasonal employee there, making $7 an hour. Funny thing is, it's at a Macy's that's like....45 minute away from me, lol, instead of the one that's only 20 minutes. My first training/orientation class is this saturday.

There's a guy interested in me...but I'm not sure yet if I'm interested in him or not. It's a definite thought!